If I’m being honest about the biggest roadblocks on my own spiritual path, I would have to say getting out of my own way. Some may understand this with no explanation, but for those that can’t, let me explain. Being honest about the roadblocks on your spiritual path may not be the easiest thing to do, but it’s worth the effort.
I can honestly say that very often I have a big problem getting out of my own way. I think I know what’s best for me, but if I go back and really look at the situation, I realize it’s more of what I want to do rather what I need to have happen.
I’m a very stubborn person, yes I said it, and have a hard time allowing or asking for help. If I don’t do things myself, I have only myself to blame for the outcome. Silly notion isn’t it, but I’m sure there are a lot of you out there thinking what I just said resonates with you too.
There are times when life gets in my way and I question my own belief. No matter what you believe in, whatever higher power or divine being, there have to be times when you wonder how can bad things happen to good people. If you believe in GOD, you must question why he takes our loved ones from us. Does he not know how much we need them in our lives?
I have bouts where I lose faith in myself. I wonder if I am doing the right things for the right reasons or is there something else behind my actions. Sometimes I have to step back and ask myself is my own moral compass pointing in the right direction.
Something that has helped me clear some of my own roadblocks is this quote from Maya Angelou.
“Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman”
The stubbornness that kept me on the same path, one I didn’t feel was where I need to be, was more comfortable than having to take a good look at where I was going. I was too settled into thinking if it’s just okay, no matter if it’s not working, I’m safe with staying on this path. After reading this quote, I realized sometimes being just comfortable, playing it safe wasn’t really where I needed to be in my life. I had to take that first difficult step, reach down into myself and rethink my ideals. Was I doing what I needed to make myself be the person I needed to be to obtain the life I deserve? Realizing that worrying what others thought of me was not nearly as important as how I view myself. How could others see the real me if I couldn’t see it myself?
The first step to a new path is frightening, but not nearly as scary as I perceived. Once I took that step, I began to see my path opening up in front of me and liked where I was going. It wasn’t easy and from time to time I had to stop myself from thinking it’s too hard, I can just go back to where I was and be safe. Peeling back the layers, reaching deep into myself brought up things in my life I didn’t like dealing with so had pushed them far into the recess of my mind. It had to be done, so I took it slow, little by little I began to feel lighter. I can actually say I truly began to love the person inside me.
Once I began to feel good on the inside, I noticed the change in the way others perceived me also. I began to have more self-confidence, found more of my self-worth and can actually say I like what I see. Do I still worry about what others think of me? Of course, I have those thoughts from time to time, but now I find I don’t really care as much as I did in the past. I like me and if others don’t, it’s not the end of my world.
I’m a realist, I know there will always be bumps in my spiritual path, but I continually work at keeping them from turning into roadblocks. If I can do this, so can you but if you need help being honest about the roadblocks on your spiritual path, I’d be glad to help you.
I welcome your comments or your story on where you’re going on your own spiritual path.